11th October 2009

At home, watching The Simpsons. Mum hates it.
Skips way out to me and Josh walking around Bury, his sister's with us and the group we're with and is texting horrible things to me. We walk to the bus/train station.
Me and Josh climb to the roof of a newsagents for privacy and Josh tries to have sex with me. One of the 1st year students on the same course as me climbs up with us. She wants to join in, he tries to persuade me. He has a catalogue of all female nude Barbies and asks me which one I'd have sex with. I just refuse and get upset. He doesn't care and starts having sex with her instead.

[Woke up crying]

2nd October 2009

Weird. Seem to be walking round arcade-y shopping centre type places. First it's Liam (from school)'s birthday party. Then walking round arcades. Then me, Josh, and eventually Matthew (from high school) go biking. I'm on a push bike, they're on dirt bikes. Because I struggle to get up a huge hill they assume I'm pregnant.
They buy me lots of baby "kits" and a book about babies and disease.
Emily and me at parties. Don't know anyone. Texts that say "boo 1", "boo 1-2", "boo 1-5" and "boo 2". Me and Emily get a taxi home to my house. Ends with me, bands members and (from memory it appeared to be) a blonde Trent Reznor. Clinging to him, crying, the size of a child.